Workings behind the project
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Using integral theory to analyse my skill base.
I can see that problems arising from my interior individual (UL quadrant) -issues in the subconscious arising as insecurity, not deserving to be here- make themselves visible through the LL and UR of this study.
Even though I have acquired skills in my physical self and communication with others, I tend not to use these skills to their full advantage for fear. This tells me that designs in my action learning pathway must start with one on zone 00. One that can stretch the two years to support my other designs and can be constantly evaluated.
Doing this will give me the courage to really use my skills in UR and LL and through these, develop my LR quadrant, because I’ll have the visible skills to make me credible to become more a part of collective systems. For at the moment I certainly don’t feel like I am capable to function within the collective exterior world of systems.
I started to think about what I could introduce to equally distribute my skills, and created a projected quadrant.
I then colour coded the skills into what I can keep doing, what I would like to develop and what I would like to bring in. This is useful because it helps me to easily identify the new phases where I need to be bold and also the areas that I need a bit more discipline.
Looking at these new skills to learn seem in keeping with what I see myself as ‘being’ and none are out of the ordinary, like wanting to be a scientist or start a plumbing business. And partly this makes me think, am I sticking to what I know? Should I be going for really unusual new skills and experiences? But the other half of me thinks, looking at my life review there is a way that I am rounding myself towards the things I enjoy and having a more solid focus can possibly mean more fulfilled?
I think within these categories (and life!) I should resolve to do projects that push me. What’s the best I can imagine? To what do I think, ‘I could never do that!’ ? These are questions I should ask.
From the colour coding here you can see that I’ve decided to push my skills in the UR and bring in new skills to relate to the LL and LR. I think this forms more ballance.
This has lit up areas of my life that are not fully being used to their potential.
By doing this I am able to gain maximum leverage for my goals articulation because I will work towards a holistic approach, spreading myself evenly with more depth and complexity...and that means learning!
Mind maps done at the beginning of the project...
In this map I looked at all my interests and areas I would like to explore. Through doing this, and through doing this entire project I have been checking in with Daniel a lot, thinking about how we can live our lives in a way that would help us live into our ideals. We are starting to think that it would be best if we could have a base. In terms of setting up networks, jobs and getting known, being able to put down roots may be what is called for now.